I have a very deep voice. And I mumble alot.

To Be Lost

I Believe.

I don't need a rainbow
To know who made the rain
Don't need the waters parted
To know who made the way
And I don't need a healing
To know who is the cure
Of this I'm sure

I believe that there is something
More than I can see
I believe that there is someone
Holding onto me
Sometimes I won't feel it,
But that don't change a thing
Cause it's by faith that I believe

If you had some heartache
That made you cry a thousand tears
Then let me tell you now
I know just how you feel
And that heavy weight of sorrow
That you've carried for so long
Will soon be gone

You might see a miracle
And give praises to the Lord
Don’t let a touch from heaven
Be the thing you're waiting for
Blessed are those who don't see
But still believe, do you believe?

I believe that there is something
More than I can see
I believe that the arms of Jesus
Are holding onto me
Sometimes I won't feel it,
But that don't change a thing
Cause it's by faith that I believe
I believe, I believe

Holidays!

Another break! That is short-lived. Basically just 2 weeks. Then I'm entering degree. Yay. -_-
Anyways, this break was much anticipated, despite everyone else being sad about ending their foundation year.  The first thing I did with my friends was going for a nice lunch and then planning away the itinerary for the next day. And stick to the itinerary we did.
10a.m. - Breakfast in town, having craved for roti canai for awhile now.

12p.m. - Checked out the rollerblading arena in Dataran, and found out it's a Disco Rollerblading Arena :O RM25 for as long as you want plus free rental of roller blades. We were so tempted to just discard the itinerary but alas we promised to try it out another day. So we went bowling instead. Just RM5 for student price. Fun and affordable.

2p.m. - Got McDonald's takeaway for some picnic at the beach! Drove (not me, obviously) to Pantai Puteri and laid out our picnic.

Decided to utilize my phone's 8.0 megapixel camera

..and realized Instagram can be quite fun. :)

Spent about 3 hours at the beach just eating, wading in the waters and building sandcastles. Have been missing the beach for quite awhile.

6p.m. - Headed to Jonker Street. Yep. We joined our non-Malaccan friends just stopping at almost every single shop and stall, and then dinner at a Nyonya place.

9p.m. - Walked till our feet hurt. But enjoy we did!

Sunday School

Today during Sunday school:

Shawna, whispering (quite loudly) to Joshua: "Do you know you will get married one day?" *giggle fits*

Joshua: "Uhh..whaaat?"

Kids these days. :)

Much Needed.

I need a break. From everything.

Note to Self

It's a good day to be blogging. You only get to blog on 29th February once every four years.

I was reading the book Experiencing God, and came across this paragraph:
"If you do not have clear instructions from God in a matter, pray and wait. Depend on God's timing. His timing is always right and best. Don't get in a hurry. He may be withholding directions to cause you to seek Him more intently. Don't try to skip over the relationship to get on with doing. God is more interested in a love relationship with you than He is in what you can do for Him."

I guess I've been worrying too much.

"Saviour, Please"

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

Another Irony

I'm at a crossroad, and I'm studying about 'Decision Making' in Critical Thinking for my finals.

A Year Later

I realized I have been running away.. and where does it lead me to? The same crossroads that I ran away from a year ago. Time to decide. *cringe*  #easiersaidthandone

To: My dad's tenant

Dear Mr. Hartmann, or should I just call you Nils. Even though we only met once when you came to my house, and I doubt we clearly remember each others' faces, I still cringe at the news that you had recently passed so suddenly. The fact that my dad's bike played a part in the accident makes my family feel as if somehow, we are responsible for the tragedy. Our hearts go out to your family in Germany, whose grief must be such that 'devastated' is an understatement. With your homecoming only days away, it adds to our regret for the way that you have gone. Our only comfort lies in knowing you are in a better place right now.

The MUET experience

Just got my MUET results yesterday. Was kinda expecting the worst, so I wasn't as impatient as my friends who kept checking via texts despite the line being busy. Nevertheless they managed to help me retrieve my results, and it says Band 5 :) I've shared about my experience with MUET before this, and my fellow SHEEP members would know I couldn't have done this without Him. Actually, the day that I got through the speaking test was a miracle in itself. Before MUET, my English lecturer did a mock speaking test, and lets just say it was a disaster for me. I went completely unprepared, quite sure that it was going to be easy, just like what everyone else says. Obviously it did not went well. I felt my brain stopped functioning halfway through the mock test and there was an awkward and painful one minute silence until my lecturer started prompting me.
Naturally, I started feeling more than worried about MUET, and did all I could to prepare myself fully for the real thing and asked for prayers. When the day came, I brought a devotional book and did my quiet time while waiting for my turn. Then peace overrode anxiety. It was also due to some encouraging texts I received from my friends who knew about my mock test ordeal. And guess what? The topic I got was about the importance of friends. :) The test went off without me pausing or stuttering. I knew not whether it was good enough for the examiners, but I certainly knew that I did my best with God's help, and that was more than good enough for me.
Despite that I still felt a bit worried about the results when it came out ("O ye of little faith"). But that feeling was quickly replaced with joy and thankfulness after I got the news. Eventhough some may say that it was an expected one from me (my sister got the same result), but for me Band 5 is definitely a gift from God.

The Lord reigns!

R.O.C. 2 had been such a ride. Honestly I did not expect all the weariness, frustrations, sweat, bruises, etc. when I signed up for it. Thought stage fright was the only obstacle I'd have to overcome but it turned out to be the least of my worries for the entire duration. Trust me, during the days of practices, I've had my share of petty complains.
But God is good. Midterms that were scheduled on those two nights were postponed for some of the cast & crew, and my assignments' due dates were postponed too. My high school best friend called me last minute to tell me she was coming. Everything practically went off without a hitch. To God be all the glory!

Stressed.

Dear reader, I desperately need you to pray for:

1. All those who are coming for the R.O.C2 musical

2. All those who are unsure of whether they'll make it or not

3. For everything to go according to His plan, and stop the enemy from attacking the cast & crew

4. For me to keep in key during the play. (The key is so high that I automatically sing with my falsetto)

Oh, and it's less than 48 hours away. 

2012 already?!

Don't know if it's a growing-older thing, but it seems to me 2011 just came and gone in a snap. 'Cause I can still vividly remember last year's watch night service. But then when I think of the 4 days National Service that I joined, it seemed like it happened very long ago. Time is very mysterious thing.
I'm feeling a lot of mixed emotions like I always do during the end of a year. Truth be told, 2011 has been quite tough on me. As I reflect upon the year, the memories that stood out don't quite stir up a warm, fuzzy feeling like they did in 2010. Nevertheless, I think God has taught me a lot more during 2011; I have that and so much more to be grateful for.
This year, instead of making a list of new year's resolutions, I'm just gonna commit to one resolution - to be resolute. Ashamed as I am to admit it, I seldom stick to my resolutions. Therefore I'm just gonna try this year, to not be a quitter, to stop running away when things get heavy, for "he who endures to the end will be saved" (Mark 13:13). This one resolution kinda covers all other resolutions that I can possibly come up with during the year, so I'm just gonna at least do my best to commit to this resolution, and hope that God will be proud of me after another year ends once again.

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men" (Colossians 3:23). Blessed new year everyone :)