Letting Go

It's funny how emotional I get when I think back and realized it's been one year since - doesn't matter if it's my birthday, someone else's birthday or even the day I stepped into university. I just tend to reminisce what silly things I've done, the decisions I've made, the friends that I've made, and basically how far God has brought me and how much He has blessed me with.

Digressing here for a bit, I tend to hold on to things for memory's sake. It's hard for me to move on when something good or memorable comes to an end, be it a book, a movie, a camp, an event, or a relationship. Yes I'm clingy like that.

Then today I heard a sermon on Job and of course the verse that says "The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord" (Job 1:21), and came across this verse about God's sovereignty in Desiring God: "Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?" (Job 2:10) and also this post on Facebook:

"Never put a comma where God has placed a period. What God closes, you don't want open. Look ahead to the new thing in store." -Naeem Callaway. 

Inevitably, everything comes to an end, but God remains forever. He closes a door and opens another. What I can do is to thank God that it happened and let go, remembering all the good that came from it.
"Don't cry because it ended, smile because it happened."

On a side note, what a perfect timing for church camp to be happening tomorrow. Some distraction.

Ha ha ha...ha ha...ha.. ha.

Sometimes I do stuff that is so embarrassing that I just wanna crawl into a hole and stay there. Forever.

Sadly, I can't really do that so my alternative is just to write here. No, I'm not actually gonna write what embarrassing thing I did. It's just that it's so frustrating I can't try to undo what I did because it'll make things even worse. So all I can do is just to act normal. And smack myself.

Growing Apart

Sometimes I wonder why do people grow apart. Why two friends who can talk to each other just about anything, suddenly turn into strangers.
Is misunderstanding the cause? Or is it distance? Either way, they just seem like excuses to me. And it's sad. I'm sad. Because I feel like I've just lost a friend. And not knowing why is what kills me.

It is in you.

One of the best songs I've heard in a while. 

Perspective