These Memories

I know I will not be able to fully let go, at least not now. There are times that I will fall back, but I pray to God so that He will not let me make the same mistakes of hurting you again.

I have went through this countless times, but when it finally came down to it, I was not prepared at all. Every time I told myself I have let go, but it was like a letting a kite go while still holding on tightly to its strings, hoping that it will not fly too far away.

This time, I'm saying goodbye to the kite. It was not mine to hold in the first place. As tempting as it is to think that it will come back, I can't entertain the thought of it. I'm trusting God on this. Even if my hands remain empty after I've opened them. Even if the healing doesn't come. 

God has graciously given me memories that I can keep for awhile before it fades. But for now, ...

...these memories, I will hold them dear.