Second-hander

You need to start doing the things you do with joy. They may not be things you want to do, but finding joy in it helps you focus on the things God wants to get done through you instead of the things God wants done through other people. In other words, it helps us to be more contented and happy.

"A second-hander is someone who has no real sense of self, but instead borrows their perception of self from those around them. Rather than being who they truly are, they instead adopt a persona according to what they think society and those around them would find pleasing and acceptable.
Sometimes these people are seen as altruistic, giving of themselves. In reality they don’t give anything as they don’t have anything of a self to give. Rather, they like to be seen to be selfless because they think they will find approval that way." - Ayn Rand

Don't be a second-hander.