Frustration

Of not being the person you want to be. And of having the wrong perspective, but you can't seem to think of it in a different way, and you're stuck with this miserable feeling. Then you try to run away from reality by distracting yourself, but everything else you do, you're distracted by the very thing you're running away from. But what is it you're really running away from? "Nah, it's nothing..It's not worth talking about", because you're afraid of being judged, and eventually (hopefully), it'll come to pass.

But how will it come to pass, if you don't confront it?

What?

It's so frustrating when your memory fails you. It's frustrating because it frustrates other people as well that you don't remember a memory that they shared with you, or a promise/task, or a detail that was important to them. And then you feel like you've failed them. which then makes you feel like you've failed yourself. Yay.

Today, I've learned...

To not stop loving others even when they have stopped loving me. Because God still does and never will stop loving me.

I'm Fabulous

Yes, I'm under stress. No I'm not going crazy. I just think I need to bask in God's love for me today. And more and more each day.

I know that. I believe that. 

Encounters

I think one of the greatest blessings from God are the people that He places in our lives, no matter how long they stay.

Also, there's also something special about brief encounters with strangers. You may be surprised by how much you can learn about a person in 10 minutes, if you ask the right questions. What I've learned, is to never assume. There's just so many aspects to a person's life and each experience is so unique. Each time I hear a story from these encounters I'm reminded about how God always has a plan for each one of us.

I just need to surrender more.

"In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:6)

I think I may be more suited being an emo. Being outgoing is so draining. At least I tried?

Second-hander

You need to start doing the things you do with joy. They may not be things you want to do, but finding joy in it helps you focus on the things God wants to get done through you instead of the things God wants done through other people. In other words, it helps us to be more contented and happy.

"A second-hander is someone who has no real sense of self, but instead borrows their perception of self from those around them. Rather than being who they truly are, they instead adopt a persona according to what they think society and those around them would find pleasing and acceptable.
Sometimes these people are seen as altruistic, giving of themselves. In reality they don’t give anything as they don’t have anything of a self to give. Rather, they like to be seen to be selfless because they think they will find approval that way." - Ayn Rand

Don't be a second-hander.